I'm No Revolutionary

In the wake of all that has happened within the past 72 hours it's easy to feel down to feel like the world is against us. Nothing anyone says at this moment will make an already divided race of people feel any solace., We're angry and we want justice, we want justice by further creating injustice, this doesn't seem like a solution to me.

I'm no revolutionary...

I know that we're tired of being ran over, treated like we are less than...to wake up and  look into the face of a world that seems to have no place for you, no place where you're actually wanted, just tolerated. Its...more than disheartening, all news is bad news.

I am not a revolutionary

Bad cops, drug dealers, rapists, government. A threat at every turn. Even when we're doing right we are questioned of our motives. They'd like to believe that there is no good in us, they'd like to make US believe that there is no good in us. 

I'm no revolutionary...but...

I feel them chuckling when we act just like they want us to. I see them saying "I told you I would break her, told you they're not a civilized people." Though they push us to sudden extremes, we feel rage, we feel anger, we feel hurt we feel sadness, we ARE fed up. 

I have never been a part of "The Revolution"

But this is not how I imagined it. I imagined it being well thought out, well planned and well led. We are an emotional group of people, but I would like to believe that our logic outweighs our need to show brute force. The news doesn't show us at peace, they don't show us being non-violent, they don't show us trying to make it in a world full of vultures where no matter where you go you have to keep in the back of your mind the fact that this person might hate me just because.....

R-E-V-O-L-U......

Its hard, because even in this we are divided! Even in this you have people saying that our brand of revenge was ill planned, and others who think that burning down a gas station was the start of something great. We have some who want others to ignore Robin Williams being dead and to save our RIP's and our prayers for Mike Brown...thats not how praying works...just an FYI

T-I-O-N

We CANNOT band together when we are a race that is so fucking far apart. We divide ourselves on everything. Natural vs. Relaxed. Light vs. Dark. The list goes on but I have other races that read my blog and honestly it is too embarrassing to even go any further with that.

I'm black, and I'm proud to be black and there is no other race I'd rather be, but I'm no revolutionary, not in a field of chaos and anger. All we're doing is yelling at a wall expecting it to crumble by the mere sound of our angry voices. Until we take the time to settle down and formulate some type of solution. Until we stop treating these deaths like a bit of pop culture that we are over once the new Jordan's come out....until then all we will ever be is an angry mob of people.

*heavy sigh* I'm done.

Cut this shit out.